Below this post you can see two abstract works that are prototypes or the beginnings of a new series of abstract work inspired by both the cynicism and hope carried in my heart today. I hope that each work is able to reflect a battle of light and dark within in the color compositions and combinations. As always these works are also inspired by process and techniques, and will symbolize the merging of techniques I learned when I first started out as a visual artist with ideas and concepts I have tried to tap into recently.
These new works represent and will represent a fusion, a struggle for balance, and a battle between the internal forces and emotions within myself.
Lastly I must again stress that these are prototypes or first ideas of this new series, some friends and followers may notice that I have posted these specific works before more was added to them,painting these works in stages has helped me come up with the vision behind the approach of process I plan to take in the coming weeks and months. The next works hopefully will be a little more refined and more composition ally planned.
“Among other things, you’ll find that you’re not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behaviour. You’re by no means alone on that score, you’ll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You’ll learn from them—if you want to. Just as some day, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It’s a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn’t education. It’s history. It’s poetry.”—
thank you for your words, and may you rest in peace.
I am sure most people are dreading returning or being back in college or high school….. a part of me feels that way as well. This has been the greatest winter break ever, new music, new friends, new experiences made, it a surreal experience to say the least. That being said, I am also looking forward to returning to school, I think the academic environment will help with my art…. it has been the most unfocused, and as a result, poorest quality as of late. I absolutely loathe the sight of my last series of abstracts, I must have been in a really chaotic place emotionally and mentally, in fact I know I was. The compositions and mark making was just too messy and too much to take in visually for me and I was the artist who made them…. I can’t even imagine the horrors that entered the minds of viewers as they exposed their fragile eyes to such hideous work. I plan to attempt to revisit techniques and compositional ideas of my earlier and seemingly stronger works. And I was making a lot of those works that have been sold while I was in a more serene, more focused, academic environment with a teacher guiding me, I suppose I don’t think I am good enough to completely trust myself without at least some input and direction along the way.
I have never been more frustrated with my work than I am right now…. nothing I make pleases me at all, not even a bit. Its emotionally damaging to say the least, I think creating music is the only thing saving me from going totally insane right now.
So to sum that all up….. starting next week I will have studio classes every Tuesday and Thursday from 8:00am to 5:20pm….. ya that’s kind of crazy, but I am looking forward to learning more and developing concepts to make me a better all around artist. I have the passion, and I am starting to acquire real skill, but I still need stronger vision…..
I woke up to the most recent major supreme court decision stating that corporate political advertising is free speech and basically cannot be regulated.
Another victory for unbridled greed and capitalism, another defeat for liberty and democracy. MONEY IS NOT A FORM OF FREE SPEECH! How can one person have more freedom than the next person? Our corrupt politcial and judicial system has made made big business more important than you or me today.
Capitalism and money are both eroding away the ideals and values of this country to the point where we may be seeing the end of who we are as a nation. Too many people are greedy and self-centered, too many people are either fucking Middle America or too busy trying to get themselves in a position to fuck Middle America.
No one cares about anyone any more, everyone is out for themselves. The country is falling apart but as long as they have the nice car, nice house, plastic spouse, and more money than they need then life is good.
Why can’t we be satisfied with having enough instead of always trying to have it all? Why do the majority of us sacrifice innovation and idealism for greed and selfishness?
It’s probably too late to turn back, money controls everything, it has become everything we desire, everything we are, everything we want to be. It has become the measurement of success and the standards of our failures.
And now it has become our principal form of goverment, democracy died in the 80’s and was replaced with our greed, we call it capitalism, I call it the fall of decent American society
The details of the inspiration of this latest rant can be found here:
Right below this post you can see a clip of perhaps the most entertaining show I have been lucky enough to play in my humble percussion career. And it was all all ALL because of everyone who attended No Dancing a couple of days ago, if you were there, YOU made that show so so much fun to play…..
I will be telling my grand kids(or someones grand kids) about 1/16/10
And I love you fellow Oceanographers, you guys are like my new BFF’s!
I have to write a post telling everyone that today is an awesome day to write facebook posts
I am starting to sincerely loathe status updates on facebook and social networking in general, an friend recently wrote to the fact that its main function appears to be the false sense of importance it grants its social citizens. In other words, the reason why facebook is addicting, or become a silly habit for so many people is because we get to feel relevant, we get to feel like we are being listened to in some bizarre way. But is this honestly the reality of the social networking situation?
And definitely not if you are tweeting and posting status updates about the most irrelevant things…. you know what I am talking about, we all do it(yes me too). The sad bitter fact is that most people don’t care about you, they are too busy caring about themselves, this bitter world doesn’t change through online portals, in fact, facebook, twitter etc. entertains and encourages selfishness and a self centered attitude with these little status updates about the most irrelevant things in ones truly irrelevant life.
We need to all realize that we are drops in the bucket, but we can try to make that drop as unique and fulfilling as possible, it doesn’t need to be a self aware, greed motivated splash.
As always I will say I am not on a high horse and throw me off if you think I am, this post is just as much for me as anyone else reading this. Ironically, just by writing and posting this I am fulfilling that very same illusion of self importance most of you(and again all of us) are doing every time we log onto tumblr or facebook.
Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr is not all a bad thing either, I believe there are positive functions to be had, they can be platforms for real opinion and idea sharing, and yes it can be a platform where one shares parts of their lives….. but the interesting parts or preferred.
Here are some guidelines on posting I have arrogantly come up with in an attempt to curb irrelevant information on social networking portals:
1. Avoid day to day activities: we all eat, sleep, go to the movies etc. its not breaking news to say you had a great dinner at the macaroni grill
2. Avoid being boastful - I know, hard for all of us to do, its a fine line between that and genuine good natured pride as well, so this is a common slip up for many, I think the best way to avoid this is to boast about accomplishments rather than monetary or tangible acquisitions. Your growth as a person is much more important to me than the new car you bought.
3. Be open minded - Remember there are millions of people on the web, all with unique ideas and values…. which means you should have your own, express them, but be ready to listen as well
4. Be informative - make us aware of causes/ideas/information that you care about, I much rather would hear about your views on global warming than how your shower went this morning
5. Communicate - Lets face it, these social networking portals are nice communication tools, I have set up shows, interviews, articles, band practices etc. using facebook… try using it that way
So maybe perhaps I have been on a high horse while writing this, so I guess I will get off it now and post this on tumblr which automatically gets tweeted and posted on facebook thus contributing to the very cycle I just crusaded against while writing
Oh well….. I guess I will just log in and see what everyone is doing today
I decided in the Summer of 2006 that I wanted to be an artist. I wanted to paint, I wanted to draw, I wanted to play music, I wanted to write poetry…. and I didn’t and still really don’t want to do anything else. Why or how I decided this is irrelevant, what is relevant is that 4 years later I have not regretted this decision for a moment, I have however feared it from time to time. Or more specifically I fear the passion behind it all, I fear that my passion for love, life, and art shields me from reality…. most of the time I welcome this shield. Sometimes I fear it….I suppose as I write this, this is one of those days where I fear it. Maybe I fear whats involved behind it, like losing friendships, relationships…. human interaction in general….. there are days that I wake up, like this one….. where I feel so very isolated, perhaps not alone, but isolated. I am going to try to really move forward this year, in all facets, emotionally, mentally, financially, academically etc. I suppose that is a resolution of some sorts. I’ll do all the things I am supposed to do. I’ll say all the things that I am supposed to say.
But I cannot give up my passion, at my core its all I really have, its all I want to have.