ZR HiLL

Having little to no money, living paycheck to paycheck…. has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. Sure it can be frustrating, stressful, and yes even unpractical not to know if you have money or if you don’t everyday you wake up.

And before I go on, being a little spoiled does help. The family and friends I have provide a limitless support system of which go well beyond any financial compensation, if I didn’t have them I would not be able to exist in my present condition. But a material symbiotic relationship does exist between my parents and I, we share cars, we share phone plans, I borrow money from them, they borrow money from me(the latter is obviously the more frequent of the two). They are vital support to my physical and philosophical lifestyle. They are okay with this because they raised me to be this way, and they are willing to support me to keep me this way.

We (my family and I) put no real value on materials, or financial gain. We view making money as it was intended: earn enough money to provide necessities, no more no less. Of course in the 21st century American culture, we are a family of luxury, we have possessions we really don’t need, we just don’t attach a personal value to those things. They are nice to have, but we wouldn’t care much if they were gone, in a decent number of cases they are gone. But still we remain happy.

Why am I writing all this down? I don’t know really…. I just woke up this morning feeling really, really fortunate. I’m 26 going on 27, still not in the 2nd half of schooling, just moving out of the nest next week, 8 dollars in my bank account, never knowing when the next paycheck is in my hands. But I still feel fortunate because:

1. My family will support me til death(even my brother)

2. Both my jobs, one which pays randomly, and one which pays me not at all make me feel that I am making a positive difference in the world. Even if the difference is made to one kid, or one artist.

3. I get to play music with 3 people who are like extended members of my family. We get to play shows, we just get to do what we love do to.

4. I’m allowed to create, to paint, to write this blog, to draw, to make music. I am allowed to be an artist.

5. I have this amazing circle of friends that are so diverse, and interested and passionate about everything and anything. Every time I transcend, become a new person, put on a new mask, they are their and they don’t care.

None of these happy factors of fortune can or ever will be effected by materialism or financial gains and losses(except 4… hard to create without the materials actually). So I know with these factors in place, I can feel fortunate. But hey I do also feel fortunate that I have no debt(yet), no bills to “the man”… and I am almost completely off the grid(for better and for worse)

Here’s to every one’s fortune, may everyone, seek it, achieve it, and keep it.

ZERO!!!!!’

2 stops away!!

Well any sucky adventure should be avoided. I guess that’s why we all try to avoid death

Which came first? The music or the misery?

I don’t know for sure of course… but I do hope it’s an adventure

Which came first? The music or the misery?

Meg Whitman spent 700,000 dollars a day on her primary campaign for governor in the state of California. 7 people’s lives would be radically changed for the better if they had 100,000 dollars to work with… to pay of debt, loans, whatever. Meg Whitman could have changed the lives of 7 people per day….

British Petroleum earned 6.9 billion dollars in first 1st quarter profits this year. They have paid 53 million dollars to victims of the oil leak in the Gulf of Mexico, roughly 5,000 dollars, which probably wouldn’t pay for even half a year’s worth of rent/mortgage. If I did my math correctly(I admit there is a fair chance that I didn’t) 53 million dollars is less than what BP makes in a day!

These are just two of the latest examples of 1% of the population taking 90% of the wealth. They call it earning, but it’s not. And if your for this that’s your call I guess, but don’t pretend that the 1% actually really cares about the rest of us. Meg Whitman had the chance to really change lives but spent it on her own power, British Petroleum has a real chance to remedy some of this tragedy but are more concerned with their own power.

There won’t be any real change until money stops talking… and swearing

then stop walking on the sidewalks

don’t use the post office

stop using electricity

don’t throw away your trash

stop asking for medicare

don’t use the phone

don’t ask Obama to help the gulf(or prosecute BP)

don’t complain about the banks

don’t expect anything from anyone ever

you want to be on your own? Then leave the country and be on your own

Okay, I know what you may be already thinking. Here’s a single guy about to talk some trash about feminism, venting his bitterness towards the opposite sex or something like that. Of course the implications of such an idea is crazy, even preposterous. So like I have before I feel I must again begin with a disclaimer.

DISCLAIMER: In no way am I criticizing feminism. I have many outstanding women in my life and I cherish and love them all. 20th century feminism was VITAL to the human rights culture and movement. I believe in women, and I want them to believe in me.

People can be stupid, women are people….. therefore, WOMEN CAN BE STUPID. I stress that people can be stupid because stupidity does not limit itself to a specific gender. A false feminist movement has emerged in pop culture, society etc. It isn’t real, it’s based on creating an atmosphere of bitchy sassy women controlling dumb men, and most importantly, it doesn’t empower women it enslaves them. To whom and how?

Old white men no longer want women in the kitchens, they want them in the malls, they want them to spend their husbands/boyfriends money, or their own money, on shit they don’t need.

Sex and the City, Desperate Housewives, beer commercials, Lifetime, SARAH PALIN all want want women to use their looks and a bitchy attitude to get what they want(stupid shit we don’t need). They convince women that most men are stupid so we don’t have to respect them, more importantly they are being told that they don’t have to be smart themselves! The main stream culture is asking women to stop using their minds!

In short my theory is this: Women are being convinced all men are stupid, so therefore they must take advantage of them, for profit.

Some of the brightest minds in the world or women, there is a REAL feminist culture out their about empowering women. Alice Waters, Rachel Maddow, Kara Walker, Naiomi Klein, Elizabeth Warren etc etc I could go on, these are the real women, that everyone, not just women, should pay attention too and learn from.

I want women and men to find power and social justice within their minds and hearts, not within money, materialism, or a false sense of dominance over the other gender. Both sexes have limitless potential, both also get conned… don’t get conned women, men can be dumb as shit, but so can you. Women can be absolutely brilliant, but so can men. Don’t let the new corporate con of false empowerment push your hard earned freedoms into a packaged, marketable product for all those men you think are stupid to make money off of.

Epilogue: I started this one day, and finished a different day… so it probably comes off as random drivel. I just want all those independent, intelligent women out there to stay that way, there is an active marketing campaign to destroy feminism, it acts a Trojan horse convincing women that they are actually empowering them when in reality they are doing nothing of the sort, in fact the opposite… please avoid accordingly